I Am So Explosive Lately – What Is Wrong With Me?
I am so explosive lately – what is wrong with me?
I have never been like this before and really don’t know what is wrong with me. It started a few months ago. It may have something to do with the following:
1) I have been working for a company for three years and I am good at what I do. My old manager was going to promote me. She was given a different department and a new guy took over. He hired a friend of his to take the position I was supposed to get and both of them are idiots and don’t know what they are doing. I don’t think there is any management in the department and I am getting angry at work. My so called ‘boss’ seems to be in competition with me or something. Any time I have an idea – he’ll say ‘Oh, I was going to do it this way’ – and he is usually wrong.
2) I am questioning my husbands true feelings for me. He doesn’t seem to be interested in being affectionate anymore. We took a walk in the park and we have a secret romantic spot. We went there today and instead of kissing me I got a peck on the lips and he seemed ‘forced’ into it.
3) I work full time and make breakfast, lunch, dinner, food shop and care for the cats (no kids). We just moved and he complains that we haven’t finished unpacking yet. He asks when I am going to clean the house because the toilets haven’t been cleaned in a month. His brother calls me a slob. – WELL, If I cook and do the food shopping and take care of the cats – why can’t he help clean? Or am I wrong? (And YES – we have had this discussion before and he knows how I feel)
So, Lately I have been very explosive especially towards my husband. Today I made breakfast, lunch, dinner, ran a few errands, cleaned cats litter boxes. He didn’t help clean up afterwards. He went out with a few friends for a few hours came home and sat on the couch watching TV for hours. While I was working out he asked me to get him a glass of water since I want to excersice and lose weight. At the time it didn’t bother me and I thought it was funny and got him the water. Then – for some reason I started stewing about it and asking myself ” Why didn’t he get it? I wouldn’t be so stressed out if he got the water himself. Can’t he see I am working out?” Then, I asked him to help out clearing the dinner dishes. He said “I’ll get it tomorrow. I am used to being a slob from being around you.” That did it – and I went off on him for an hour screaming and yeling about how I am sick of being called a slob and that I work too so can’t he help out – how come he didn’t get his own water and I said if he got being a slob from me then I got being lazy from him and he kept saying he’s sick of hearing me yell and shut up or go to bed. He also said that he ‘asked me to get him a glass of water” and he said I could have said NO. So he just doesn’t get it. It made me more mad that he didn’t acknowledge why I was so mad. I just feel so stressed out lately. Why can’t he get his own glass of water? Why can he sit there and watch TV and relax while I am running around doing stuff.
Ok – he has a point – I could just say no get it your self- but for some reason I got it then stewed about it later.
ANyhow – my point is maybe I have a reason to feel the way I do – maybe I don’t. I just wanted other people’s opinions about it all. Is something wrong with me or are all the situations starting to get to me? I mean – I used to handle stress very well. I used to have patients and tact and know how to handle a situation without yelling and screaming. I used to just be able to talk. NOW I fly off the handle screaming and I know it isn’t helping the relationship with my husband. I yell at him for no reason sometimes. What is going on?